November 03,1999-The Lord was Gracious

November 03, 1999 was an eventful day, there was the joy to me that I did not deliver on Halloween and that finally my BEN was coming into this world.  My pregnancy was uneventful and Healthy.  I found out that Ben was a Superbowl surprise-(yes it can happen during the Superbowl my friends) that is the first time Scott and I had taken time for ourselves at went away for the weekend.  Andrew was 9 months old at that time.  What a joy he was to our lives.  I had mixed feelings in the beginning of my pregnancy with Ben, Andrew was only 9 months old and I felt I had cheated him, and then there was a sense of Joy, wow another baby.  I suffered with Endometriosis for over 8 years prior to either pregnancies and was told I would not be able to have children.  I think they were wrong. (Lesson to myself-Doctors are not GOD and they cannot say Never.)  GOD had a plan for us, and boy was Ben a Gift from GOD in all aspects of his wellbeing. 

I was induced in the morning-my boys were too comfortable in my womb-I had to be induced with both boys. Due to some graphic and personally reasons I am not going through the day of Delivery.  I will say that my Uterus Ruptured (my uterus tore at the previous c-section scar) during Labor,  Ben was delivered via Emergency C-Section.  I had lost over 1/2 of my blood supply and Ben was very sick-He went to the Lord and the Lord was gracious enough to give him back to us.  Benjamin spent 9 days in ICU and I spent that time recovering myself.  We were so happy this baby was a fighter-He was so stubborn and refused to keep his breathing tube in-he pulled it out himself the next day.  The Emotions of the next 2 weeks was unbearable for a Mom & Dad, is he going to live or die.  He was very sick from Birth.  I think we all know now that he survived and boy did he survive.  9 out of 10 babies die at birth from Uterine Ruptures and the 1% who survive Birth can die within the 1st 2 years of complications.  People wonder how do you survive something like that, I often wondered that myself but GOD had plans for Ben & I and our family. Ben was not released from the Hospital right away, as for a mother that is so HARD-going home without your BABY.  I cried and cried I did not want to leave him there.  Our family is a strong unit, we did not know the future of our baby but we knew one thing-we had to do one day at a time and sometimes it was minutes at a time......

Be Educated Now-(BEN)

Welcome to my new Blogg-I hope that my Experiences will help you, when you feel like there is nowhere else to turn or are at your witts end.  I am a Mother of 2 Boys-12 year old and a 10 year old  with 13 diagnosis', including Ataxic Cerebral Palsy, Autism Spectrum-PDD-Pervasive Development Disorder, Seizures. It is not always easy to keep up with him and his needs.  There are times I get so overwhelmed and the let the Stress get to me.  This happened about a month ago.  I was having a really tough time, I quit my job to stay at home due to Ben's Behavior, I kept getting called at work to come home, and I was missing time at my job.  I am staying home right now and it is summer time.  I need to remind myself everyday that it is a new day and life is not always predictble as well as my son.  My oldest son is such a good kid and sometimes I know it is hard on him.  We try to spend as much time with him as possible.